Rock Bottom

I had never seen rock bottom till a few weeks ago. I know I hit it. I always thought anxiety, depression panic attacks, “oh that’s all stress” and my attitude was, get over it people! That was until a few weeks ago when I was stressed & anxious, to the point that I had to leave a store. What does it feel like? Well let’s just say, your heart beats so fast you think your chest is about to pop. You can’t breathe, to the point that you start rolling down your window while driving to try and catch a breath –kinda like puppies in a car. You feel like you are dizzy & going to pass out. You can’t eat, but you are so dehydrated that you can’t drink enough to keep hydrated. You are overwhelmed with people around you. You want to run & hide and all you can think is about is going to a comfortable place! That my friends is a panic attack. If you know me, you know how anti drugs I am especially antidepressants- to me; they are nothing but a band aid. My Battle with the broken tail bone has really challenged me. I have lost my stress relief- running, and a quick endorphin fix is no longer an option. So, stress arises.
In my search to find solutions for the stress I was facing I was able to find an alternative to antidepressants - natural supplements- exact amounts of what’s missing from my diet, body & environment. I started taking them today and I will record the outcome. I truly believe, in my heart, we are all capable of improving our mental and physical healthy if we listen to our instincts and do what’s right.
Some keys to that are

1. Acknowledge the problem and then - Get Healthy first
2. Figure out what’s the problem
3. Write it down- Keep a journal- figure out what’s triggering all this , what makes you happy what makes you sad, annoyed, stressed, enthusiastic, anything –write it down.
4. Do your homework, learn read & grow
5. Be accountable- have realistic goals & timelines

MOST IMPORTANT - it's not going to get fixed overnight (all good things take time) - Make the change so you can BE HAPPY – you only live once- START LIVING…

Have you started your Journey?

Training programs either follow millage or time. Others follow weight or repetitions. Today I decided I better know my goal – in order to plan my journey… anything, because without a destination you will never arrive.

So I have decided to set some realistic goals for my current situation. Plans as follows. Since I like to start my programs on Monday this will be my schedule beginning 10/10/11 Ending 11/6/11

Monday	Tuesday	Wednesday	Thursday	Friday	Saturday	Sunday
Yoga/Walk 2 miles	Swim 20 min	Yoga/walk 2 miles	Swim 20 min /Lift 30 min	yoga	Yoga/Walk 3 miles	OFF
Yoga/Jog 1 mile -walk 2	Swim 30 min	Yoga/Jog 1 mile- walk 2	Swim 30 min /Lift 30 min	yoga	Jog 2 miles	OFF
Yoga/Jog 2 -walk 2 miles	Swim 40 min	Yoga/Jog 1 mile- walk 3	Swim 30 min /Lift 30 min	yoga	Yoga/Jog 3 miles	OFF
Yoga/Run 2 -walk 2 miles	Swim 45 min	Yoga/Run 3 mile- walk 2	Swim 30 min /Lift 30 min	yoga	Yoga/Run 3 Walk 2 miles	OFF

Note: When doing more than one activity per day try to break it up, by doing one in the AM and the second PM or Mid Day.

I used to argue, that by not having any expectations in life, you never seem to get disappointed. I WAS WRONG-I have learned that without any expectation you never succeed. Without goals, you can’t assess how far you have come in all aspects of your life. Life is about progression, accomplishments growth and love.  We must imagine/see our destination and then we figure out the route in life that will take us there. In the meantime don’t forget to enjoy the journey. 

Man improves himself as he follows his path; if he stands still, waiting to improve before he makes a decision, he'll never move.
Paulo Coelho